Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
Friday, September 11, 2009
Friday, April 10, 2009
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Some years ago I was sad and empty and feeling very inferior. I started this blog and 3 people reached out and encouraged me (symbols above, Jamie, Megg, Alexandra). Those first contacts and countless more since then have added beautiful, bright colours to my world and made me feel more a part of things and not so isolated here in my little town. This week I will be watching out for guides all around me and working on intensifying relationships with them.
Friday, February 13, 2009
I can give compliments freely and have no problem being enthusiastic or sharing my admiration for people BUT I cannot criticise others OR take personal criticism – I have no problem talking to a third person about someone who upsets me but it´s very difficult for me to tell that person directly for fear of it coming back at me and then having to accept some criticism myself. This makes me ashamed of myself again and again and I am often fearful of putting myself and my ideas out there. My biggest fear is being laughed at. It makes my tears well up just thinking about it.
I´m sure there were situations in my childhood and later years that have played a role but only because it´s a weakness of mine that others have picked up on. Their critical, unaccepting and laughing voices are my gremlins and although I can be creative and happy regardless, they have the power to hold me back.
I have noticed my fear of success. I see the world in two parts. The artists, social thinkers and alternative lifestylers on one side and the greedy, money making business mogules on the other. (Even while I´m writing this one of my gremlins is saying you´re all going to thinking I´m crazy). I want to be in the first half and am afraid of getting too close to the second half. Does this make sense to anyone? So although I do want to have abundance and financial security in my life, I fear getting caught up in working life and becoming part of a system I don´t like. I´m sure that this outlook also blocks my creative ideas and endeavours too.
I feel like the path has been easy these last few weeks and now I´m standing in front of a steep hill. HELP!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Friday, February 06, 2009
The way for me to silence those voices in my head telling me I have more important things to do than collage or sew, is to have a plan and stick to it. Routines and rituals feel good to me. I feel at ease when I know that I am taking care of myself and my family, when I can open my door and not be ashamed of my apartment or my appearance and when I have enough time to create and to be with family and friends. When I don´t plan my days and just let them happen, time runs away from me and I feel like I´ve done nothing.
During Soul Coaching I made my Zen Teacup - I know what´s important to me and I don´t let much else in. It´s MY cup, it´s MY life! I´d love to see what´s in your cup.
Monday, February 02, 2009
Friday, January 23, 2009
REACH: to get to or get as far as in moving, going, traveling; to come to or arrive in some course of progress, action; to succeed in touching or seizing with an outstretched hand; to stretch or hold out; to extend so as to touch or meet; to establish communication with; to amount to, as in the sum or total; to succeed in making contact with.
There is so much in Chapter 3 that speaks to me. I know what fascinates me, I know I am strong, I know I work well under pressure when I really want something. I want to reach out to others, reach out beyond myself. I will take this knowledge with me tomorrow when I start my training. I really believe "It´s only too late if you don´t start now"(Barbara Sher´s book title) . I am so excited!
Friday, January 16, 2009
Creative Style Inventory
1. When did your creative awakening or reawakening occur?
I was always creative, I just didn´t recognise and make time for it. This changed shortly after I started blogging. By getting feedback from people I thought were fabulous, I became more adventurous and proud. I started to feel the need to make things with my hands and move away from consumerism.
2. What talents do you have naturally?
I´m a good talker and teacher, I make people feel at ease and I don´t get nervous very easily. I have a good ear for music and I love to sing. I am a natural leader. I am great at making something out of almost nothing. Friends often ask me for for ideas when they are decorating, looking for a gift or creating something and I always have an idea. Ideas just pop into my head. I´m also great at combining colors and patterns.
3. Which elements draw you toward them?
I love water and swim whenever I get the chance, even when it´s really cold. We have a lot of wood in our home as my husband is a carpenter/cabinet maker and I love the cosy atmosphere it creates.
4. Where and when do you create?
I create at my sewing table, my kitchen table or my coffee table. I put 2 hours aside every day to sew or collage or blog or just be open for ideas which I write down in an ideas diary. I check my timetable the night before and write down a 2 hour appointment for the next day in my calendar for creating. I have 3 hungry teenage sons, a large appartment and a small garden so there is always something that has to be done. If I didn´t put time aside for myself it wouldn´t happen.
5. What activates your creative energy and what drains it?
Going for a walk each day, noticing the weather, the change of seasons and the colors outside, breathing, these things make me feel alive and full of energy. Having a routine to keep my surroundings organised and my family fed and clothed gives me energy because I can create without that nagging voice in my head telling me I should be doing something else. I am the assistant director of a girl´s choir. Working and being around them gives me a lot of energy too. Being tired drains my energy so I try to get enough sleep but I don´t always succeed - I´d rather read blogs and books.
6.Do you use creative rituals?
I have my utensils sorted into activities. All the sewing stuff in one place, a box for collaging materials, my knitting things all in one basket. One ritual is to put away these things after I am finished so I don´t waste time looking for things. Before I go to bed at night I make sure my living space is tidy so I can start the next day with a clean slate.
7. Does nature influence your creativity? How?
As mentioned in answer 5. There are so many inspiring sounds, patters and color combinations in nature, everywhere you look.
8. What has been your greatest creative hurdle so far?
Silencing the voices in my head telling me what I create is not good enough and that I should be doing something more worthwhile with my time. My routine, positive feedback and a partner who is supportive and creative himself really helped.
9.What time of day are you most receptive to inspiration?
I find mid-morning the best because I´m home alone and it´s so quiet.
This year I will be working within an independent group of international language trainers, interpreters and translators - on the 27th of January our new language training center will be opening with courses beginning in Febuary. We also plan to include art, craft and sewing courses aswell as personal development workshops sometime in the future. I will be starting a series of courses and seminars at the end of January to become a motivational trainer for adults and children. And to top it off I will be learning to play the piano so I can incorperate music and singing into my courses aswell.This week I will concentrate on my new work situation and how to use routines and rituals to make this dream come true.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
There´s this thing inside of me, part of me.
You may see it glowing.
If you´re moving along too quickly,
then you probably can´t tell.
For a long time, I didn´t notice it.
I was busy with other things.
Having kids, teaching, living – sort of.
Worrying, running, suffering.
In my relationships, my jobs, my homes.
It was there, glowing.
But I was moving along too quickly.
I just couldn´t tell.
These days I move slower, I live slower.
I walk with my eyes and ears open.
I love with my heart open and let what´s inside out,
like rays of sunlight.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Secret 1 - Acknowledging Your Creative Self
*Teaching *Motivating *Leading *Crafting *Singing
Now I´m learning and experimenting with new processes so I can combine these talents and use them to make a positive difference.