Sunday, May 21, 2006

Sunday Scribblings # 8

3 Wishes!
My 3 biggest wishes have already come true. When I say wishes I don´t mean hopes or reachable goals that I make for myself, I mean WISHES, things I´ve wanted but never thought I would get.

When I left Australia in 1989 it was to get away from an ending relationship that kept pulling me back in because I was sentimental, afraid and too close so I put enough distance between us to be able to put it behind me. I travelled around Europe, to Africa and England and back to Europe. I discovered a love for decorating, a need to surround myself with pieces of me - books, pictures, people but that´s very difficult when you´re on the move so I made a wish to have a house. While I worked at a pub here in this small village Reichenfels I often went for walks after work or in my lunch breaks and there was this lovely little wooden house I used to pass and I used to dream about what it would be like to live in it, to come home and lock the door behind me, make a fire, cook a meal and read or watch a good movie or invite friends over. It was about 6 years later that I moved into my own house and I can see that "little, wooden house" when I look outside my kitchen window because a chain of coincidences led us to build our house on the piece of land directly behind it.

Each time I was pregnant I wished for sons rather than daughters. I cannot believe my wishes came true and I always thought that I would have to have a daughter to see what my mother went through with me while I was growing up. I´m so glad I don´t have to tackle the gender and self-confidence issues that often had me paralysed with fear during my pregnancies. Oh the relief each time the gyneacologist said "it´s going to be a boy!".

Wish number 3 is one that I´m sure we all carry inside us - to find true love. A love that supports you, gives you wings and lets you grow and be honest and be yourself atlast. Again, I never thought I would find it. It was about 5 years into my marraige before I realised this wasn´t it. I had to adapt too much to please him, keep my mouth shut too often and compromise my principles. I knew it was only a matter of time before it would end and that´s when I started wishing for the kind of love you read about, the kind of love you don´t see very often, the kind of love that you can´t imagine being without. Once again I "wished" because I never really believed that I´d find it. Like in the song "I learnt the truth at 17, that love was made for beauty queens", I had come to believe that I was not deserving, not lucky enough. Just when I was ready to give up, when I thought I would lose all sense of feeling, shrivel up and disappear if someone didn´t touch me, I found it and like when a child is born, once you have it you cannot imagine your life without it.

Don´t be afraid to make wishes.

17 comments:

Terri /Tinker said...

What a lovely post - so many of us have been offering cautionary tales; it was wonderful to be reminded that wishes really can come true in the very best of ways!

megg said...

Oh Claudia - this was wonderful! I'm so happy for you that all of these dreams have come true. It makes me happy to think of coming into your love-filled house and spending time with your family. Sigh.

lisrobbe said...

Beautiful post. What a lucky person you have been to have all your wishes come true. I agress with you completely that people should not be afraid to wish. May you have many more wish's come true in the future.

GoGo said...

Thank you. I will reread wish #3 often, I promise.

Thanks for the hope to leap into our wishes.

Marilyn said...

Thanks for the reminder that sometimes we don't need to be careful what we wish for...we need to take care that we're sure to wish for what we want. :)

Caroline said...

Wow I love that your wishes have already come true - have you no more up your sleeve?

boliyou said...

A great story of wishes coming true. You keep wishing too!

jorth said...

I'm so glad your wishes have come true for you!

Laini said...

Yours is the only scribbling I've read so far that is so positive, that your wishes have already come true. That's fabulous! I think sometimes even when our wishes DO come true we aren't as aware of it and as grateful as we should be because we're on to our next round of wishing already. Good for you for being alert to your own beautiful life and good fortune!

Kristine said...

Bravo for you and the ways in which your dreams have come true! I loved reading about your life.

liz elayne said...

beautiful. i love the way you have written this my dear...your positive, gorgeous hope. thank you for sharing this...you just made my heart so happy.

Madeleine said...

You give me hope....I loved your wishes and even more that they have come true. Life with 3 little ones is sometimes difficult but equally as fantastic. I'm so happy that you have found your true love to share it all with.I'm sure you are truly deserving of all the happiness in the world,
Madeleine x

African Kelli said...

Wow. Maybe I should have you do my wishing for me! I have a similar set of wishes. Now you've really got me thinking!
1. Ditto on your love wish. I wish for a man to love me with everything he's got and for me to feel the same lucky, happy free love for him.
2. I wish to live abroad one more time, preferrably in New Zealand, Australia or Spain.
3. I wish to have lots of babies and to be a successful writer and artist.
4. I wish to know my life was one of purpose.

Mardougrrl said...

I could feel the joy through your words. And congratulations on having your dreams come true. Here's to many, many more for you.

silvia said...

Thanks for writing these inspirational words.

I keep on getting lost in daily life, questions, must-do stuff, maybe a wish-list will help me remember what's important to me, when I get lost in time!!

ot: I'm not using my blogger journal anymore, but I couldn't leave a comment without signing in. So if you want to read my journal, you can find it here :)

http://silviadevries.typepad.com/

Jamie said...

How beautiful! I am so happy for you that those wishes came true. I'm so glad you have a beautiful home full of love and growing boys! And I am so inspired by your reminder to not be afraid to wish.

papyrus said...

Good for you having your longtime wishes come true like that.