Friday, February 03, 2006
OK...I have made a decision to change something and I´m putting it here in writing for you all to read as I am going to need some help. After reading the words of Alexandra, Megg and Laini I have decided to get my body in shape.
As long as I can remember, this has been on my mind. Was there ever a day when I didn´t wake up and think "ok, today I am going to lose weight." I haven´t felt really good in my body ever...although there are times when I have other things on my mind so I don´t think about it so much but most of the time, wanting to lose weight is a fixture in my brain. There are days when I don´t care, when I think "stuff it, you are as you are and that´s fine" but then I see a photo of myself or catch a glimpse of myself in a shop window and think"oh, is that really me!?". The picture I have of myself in my head is not the same as the one I see when I look in the mirror and I want these 2 images to come together - like when a picture is unfocused and you turn a knob to make it clear and sharp - that´s what I want. Not a perfect size anything but a healthy, defined Claudia.
Your posts have really forced me to challenge myself, to ask myself what I really want. The exercise on 52 Figments fits right in too: create a self-portrait of your most fabulous self. How can I put that on paper and then be happy with myself as I really am? I want to BE my most fabulous self!
Here are the steps I am taking as of this moment.
1. Eat only when I am hungry and don´t overeat.
2. Workout with the Pilates DVD that has been collecting dust since I bought it 3 months ago.
3. Drink 2 litres of water each day.
I hope you will all give me your advice, tell me about things which have worked for you and maybe even join me on this challenge.
Labels: Self discovery.