Monday, February 20, 2006

Who am I?

Inspired by Meg´s post I am asking myself today "who amI?". Hmmmmm, very good question.
Claudia is my name but since I´ve been living here in Austria I have the nick name "Skippy". Anyone from Australia will find that really amusing and I hated it at first but I´m used to it now. I did the test Alexandra suggested, "Jung typology test" and the outcome was Healer Idealist (iNFp) . I have been reading through the description and it´s funny, although I never considered myself in any way introverted, I guess I am. Until recently I sang in a choir and it used to be great fun. When I joined the choir 9 years ago I loved to get dressed up to go to choir practice, I enjoyed going out for a drink afterwards, sometimes coming home quite late and I particularly liked the concerts, mostly on weekends. But these last couple of years I noticed a change in the choir...I couldn´t handle all the noise anymore, I had to force myself out the door every Friday night to go to practice, I didn´t want to go out afterwards - I wanted to get home a.s.a.p. and I made up excuses not to attend the concerts. I wanted to sing the way I liked and I was tired of being bossed around by the 2 people who run the choir because I felt that they often came unprepared and didn´t research the songs or think much about how they should be sung. I was frustrated so I took all my courage and quit. When I look back I realise that the choir hadn´t changed in the last few years, it was me! The singing wasn´t perfect and that wasn´t good enough for me.
This affects other parts of my life too. I love this house, the furniture, the colours BUT if it´s not tidy and perfect I have trouble relaxing. I am forever moving things around, cleaning up, looking for ideas in magazines...I can´t stop! I wish I could be happy with everything the way it is and just keep the house clean and organised and enjoy it, but I´m never satisfied.
I had my hairdresser appointment yesterday and I love the new hairstyle - but for how long? When I have short hair I think of growing it long. When I´ve spent ages growing it, I see a woman with a great, sporty short haircut and spontaneously go and get my hair cut short, and the growing process starts all over again.
One thing I haven´t often admitted is that my feelings are very easily hurt. I am an honest person but before I say something honest to someone knowing that it will hurt them, I bite my tongue. It hurts all the more then when other people don´t treat me the same. I don´t like to be criticised...I get emotional and just can´t handle it so I stay away from critical people.
So, who am I? I´m Claudia, I´m Skippy, I´m a mother, a lover, a daughter, a sister, a friend, an idealist, an artist, a cook, a gardener, a blogger and so much more.


megg said...

Hi there!

How on earth did you did get the nickname Skippy?!?!

I'm going to do that test today. I did it once before and was an ENFJ. I am really intrigued to see if I am something else now because, like you, I think I have become introverted in my 'old' age! I like your profile and I am so happy to be getting to know you piece by precious piece!

Kali said...

I can understand how you got your nickname. *wink* (i'm an Aussie)
You sound pretty wonderful and honest to me, and I bet that your children, partner, family and friends adore you.

Marie said...

Goodness, I haven't thought about dear Skippy in years. It used to be my favourite tv show when I was a kid (yes, I really AM that old). My nickname over here is "Aussie" - not as colourful as yours.

Jamie said...

I love your picture and the words that accompany it! It's so nice to see your smiling face and see more of you.

Yay to getting a haircut that you like! I hope your joy in it lasts.

And you know, I'm not surprised to hear that your easily hurt. You are a sensitive creative person, and sometimes that seems to be part and parcel. I hope that sensitivity also allows you can to easily feel loved and supported and let lots of joy in.

Laini said...

Okay, I don't get Skippy either - you'll have to explain to the Yanks! Glad to read more about you - and see the pic. On Meg's site too! It's so nice to put faces with names. I'm not usually a very introspective person, that is, I don't spend much time thinking about my personality (I don't THINK I do...) but every once in a while I read something that makes me wonder about myself by comparison - so you got me thinking. I don't really have myself pegged. Introvert in some way, confrontational in some ways... and as for dissatisfactions with ourselves, I think there's a balance to constantly strive for. If we were ever really content we'd be kind of... done, I think. But we do need to work on relaxation and self-acceptance!

shellyC said...

When I lived in England I had the nickname "Ripper" some English freiends thought that was the most common Aussie saying!! Charming!!

Nice to meet you Claudia...I am Michelle and would love for you to pop in for coffee!!

HoBess said...

Maybe it isn't that you're always looking for more, maybe you're looking for adventure in even the smallest parts of daily life. Sometimes nothing creates a greater sense of newness than re-arranging the furniture or a new color on the walls. How exciting to have your greatest adventures without even leaving home!